the sinner in me
2009 Resolutions
Keep studying
Be a great boyfriend, and a good son
Be more all-rounded
Stop shrinking and start growing again
Be able to answer to myself
My Second Wind
I fear stagnation and lack of progress. I fear never reaching my potential and being average. I fear being forgotten. The past. Yesterday's news. I fear giving up and being passed by, going softly into that good night. I fear letting those I love down, letting myself down. I fear settling, giving in to the "that's just the way it is" mindset. I fear dying without leaving my mark. I fear not feeling these fears anymore and just floating along. These fears feed me, they nourish my drive.
I love my fear.
this was taken in a carpark in my university. make up what you want about this. i don't even want to start on it.
the fallen saint left at 1:10 am
sometimes 'sorry' just isn't enough anymore.
the fallen saint left at 1:03 am
these were the demands of my girlfriend for her offering to help me buy dinner one evening:
the fallen saint left at 1:06 am
the fallen saint left at 12:07 am
i'm with my girl, i'm happy, and i'm staying with her.
the fallen saint left at 4:16 pm
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
when it's not enough
i know we both make mistakes every day, be it new or old ones, but when it comes to making the same mistakes, i think it's only right that we be more critical of ourselves. i might be nitpicking, but it's served me well so far.i used to go weak and give in to you when you held my hand, or when you looked sorrowful. when you apologize, i want to forgive everything bad that's happened and pull you into me. when you cry it makes me want to forget everything and throw my arms around you and forget why i've been angry at you. it breaks my heart to see you cry.but not today. there's been enough tears. it can't go on like this, i won't let it. we're old enough to admit to our mistakes and take responsibility.and if i made a mistake, i wouldn't dare request anything before i make amends for my error.there are many things i want, but the most important thing i want right now is to work this out with you so we can move forward together.and i wish we didn't stay so far from each other.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
projected expenditure of relationship
4 costs only. cheap cheap.i think i'm in for it.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
respect
respect should be earned by all. it is nobody's birthright.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
alex's shuls'
you can read what you like about it, and believe what you want.get over this, because the sooner that happens, the better it'll be for you.i hope you find your happiness. all the best.